i am unable to believe that it has been two years since joey left this time and place.
only two short years, and yet it seems a life time filled with loss and heartache.
i still, at times, expect to see through my kitchen window, a bike flying around adorned with gangly arms and knobby kneed legs of a young boy.
the many scenes i’ve watched of joey, blain, and colton playing outside are etched in my mind’s memory, forever alive and laser sharp with color, sound, movement.
there is no loss in replay of the movie in my mind’s eye.
there is only, and forever, an eight year old little boy, full of fun, life, and laughter sailing on wings of wind while mounted on the two wheeled steed called a bicycle.
fast and faster!!
always rushing at life head on with all the confidence and assurance that only the very young or very old can know.
no fear!!
grab each moment and wring the very last drop of enjoyment out of it!
ah, joey,
you will never age.
you will never fail.
you will never struggle with the many and varied obstacles that life can throw in your path.
you will never watch age creep up and attack your loved ones.
you will never get aching pains or weak eyes or unstable limbs.
you will never, ever stop sailing on the wings of wind you create with your rushing, rushing, rushing forward flight into life–
life lived to the fullest each and every second.
you will be, now and forever, that boy: filled to bursting with life, love, laughter, and light.
you will be missed as long as my heart beats.
you will never be forgotten.
you will always be the only way to fill the void space that formed in my heart and life when you left.
you are, and will always be, 8 years old, full of light, laughter, love, and life.
you will always be joey
i love you and miss you each and every day.
i send to you, in the dimension you now inhabit: love, love, love
keep shining, keep laughing, keep loving, keep lighting up the world as only you can
love
theresa
